This months emotion is Nostalgia. I've decided to start looking back at old songs or demos I never released and track the evolution of Raw Emotions. This is one of the first songs that I wrote when I started exploring a solo career 6 years ago. I was OBSESSED with this song the day I wrote it and couldn't help but record a demo of it at 2am in the bathroom while everyone was sleeping. You can literally hear me pressing the space bar in the recording cause the microphone was cranked up so loud to capture me singing insanely quietly. The lyrics are a bit cryptic in this one and at this point in my life I interpret them to simply be about accepting who you are and trusting that other people will love you for being nothing more than that. To me that's scary as fuck and honestly I'm still working on it 6 years later.
V1:
I've been holdin on so long
It's easy to forget, it's easy to forget that I can let it go
And I've been a strong man
But even a strong man, even a strong man
Only has two hands
Chorus:
and I'm wondering if
and I'm wondering if
V2:
When I look into a mirror
I see a younger man, I see a younger man
That used to be me
And if I leave it all behind, will you take me in your arms?
And if I can't let it go, will you leave me all alone
Chorus:
and I'm wondering if
and I'm wondering if
Bridge:
And with the weight of all my sins upon me
Demons at the door that haunt me
If I gave all will you still want me
And take me as I am
And with the weight of all my sins upon me
Demons at the door that haunt me
If I gave all will you still want me
And take me as I am
With the burden of my hands
Chorus:
and I'm wonderin if
and I'm wonderin if